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Ketika mengunjungi sebuah bazaar, saya melewati sebuah kaunter menjual produk pelansingan badan. Disitu seorang jurujual berperwatakan menarik, berkebaya ramping, berhias bunga di kepala dan berbau harum, tersenyum comel sambil menegur saya...." 

Sinopsis yang telah tidak bertambah sejak 2 hari yang lalu. Baru mukasurat ke 3 tapi dah kekeringan idea dan motivasi untuk meneruskannya. Asyik tertangguh-tangguh.

Nak tahu betapa besarnya kuasa menangguh? Cermin divider tandas yang berkabus telah di gilap bersih. Hamparan yang selalu hampa telah disedut kemas. Rambut telah ditocang comel.

Saya teringat pengalaman semasa belajar secara sambilan beberapa tahun yang lalu.

Herbalife - hari ke 27

Walaupun demam, bacaan tekanan darah saya 120/75. Entri jurnal hari ni:

Terjaga awal pagi, sekitar jam 4 pagi. Temperature badan semakin naik, dan hidung mula berair. Demam yang tergendala semalam, akhirnya datang. Aspirin dah habis, Formula 1 Herbalife pun dah habis - 2 scoop terakhir telah pun dihabiskan semalam. Sedang mencari alasan yg betul untuk menjadi ahli.

Jam 9 pagi, sampai di klinik dan doktor mengambil bacaan. Suhu badan sedikit tinggi, sekitar 38 darjah celcius. Bacaan tekanan darah 120/ 75 dan nadi 71/min. 120/ 75 - satu bacaan tekanan darah yang agak mengejutkan. Kerana selama ini, bacaan atas tekanan darah yang paling tinggi hanya sekitar 105, paling selalu tak sampai 100 pun. Bacaan bawah pula sekitar 60. (ada mesin pengukur tekanan darah portable di kampung dan rajin memantau sendiri). Pernah sekali "blackout" di shopping kompleks kerana lewat makan tengahari, dan tidak menjaga kesihatan diri. Sindrom tekanan darah rendah yang telah saya alami bertahun-tahun dan tiada penyelesaian.

Berselang 2 hari, coach  menghubungi. Saya ceritakan tentang kisah demam. Kata beliau, mungkin proses pembuangan toksid sedang berlaku, dan menyebabkan demam. Bergantung kepada individu, simptom juga berlainan. Yang penting teruskan usaha untuk menjadi lebih sihat!  Alhamdulillah dengan hanya mengamal kan Formula 1 Herbalife, tekanan darah saya telah berjumpa keajaiban. Keesokan hari, saya telah membuat keputusan untuk menjadi ahli - kerana testimoni sendiri.

Herbalife - hari ke 15. Herbalife helped me to stay focus and finished an assignment in a day. But I celebrated it wrongly (this is not what my coach has advised me)

Just finished writing 2 documents with more than 30 pages each. It took me the whole week last week including the Chinese New Year holidays to finish the first one, and surprisingly finished the other in just one day (the whole morning till late afternoon, and without moving or talking, of course) What a commitment and a point of achievement! To celebrate, I had a premium fast food set few hours just now, and perfectly just before I sleep. Sleeping with "lighter shoulder" tonight. Thank you Allah.

  

Just finished writing 2 documents with more than 30 pages each. It took me the whole week last week including the Chinese New Year holidays to finish the first one, and surprisingly finished the other in just one day, which is today! What a commitment and a point of achievement! To celebrate, I had a premium fast food set few hours just now, and perfectly just before I sleep. Sleeping with "lighter shoulder" tonight. Thank you Allah.



  

Herbalife - hari ke 7.
Silent Chinese New Year break. Sit and write like never before. Today's jounal entry for tday :

I was awakened early this morning, despite sleep late last night. I have been writing all the way from late afternoon yesterday till mid night, and surprised to rise this early today without having to wait for the alarm clock to  strike. 

I heard similar testimonials came as fast as the next day after taking the Herbalife, unfortunately not in my case. Different body, different systems and different reactions. I continue absorbed writing pressure, and and being productive. Some 20 pages were underway. 

Stopped for a short break watching the US Special Perfect Match. Today, the ladies contestant keep the lights on like never before- even to the not-so-good-looking ones. Maybe they look forward to migrate outside China, to follow their new mate - intersting feedback of human behavior. Later in the afternoon visited the park. Made my first run and my first 100m without stop, then continued walking for 3 rounds. Glad I gained more energy lately.

Herbalife - hari ke 6.
Sunday. Happy Chinese New Year. Everybody went for holiday or balik kampung, except me. Keputusan body scan selepas godaan makan fast food.Today' entry:

Met my coach for first time, after taking the Formula 1 Herbalife, having the extra crust at the Pizza Hut yesterday and drive-in the A&W on Friday. Plus more than a week not walking at the park. Perhaps because weight is not an issue or objective of taking the  Herbalife, so I have all reasons to eat as much as I want when there is no rush. (remember I initially take Herbalife for meal replacement when having to skip meals)

After taking the "weight" and the result: body fat increased, % body water range decreased (not good).

I learn some good lessons today: 1. Poor water level is due to excess body fats and this is bad 2. Rich body fats is due to the poor way of thinking that taking good meals (with rich nutrition) is a ticket to fast food myself. 3. Objective to be reviewed someday.

Bersemangat untuk kembali menulis: Entri jurnal hari ni:

Prof Muhaya kata, setiap orang perlu ada jurnal. 5 perkara ini wajib ada di dalam jurnal setiap hari iaitu perasaaan,kesihatan, solat, hubungan manusia dan kewangan. Perunding motivasi dalam slot jam 7.30 pagi juga berkata, sediakan sebuah buku nota dan sebatang pen di dalam kereta. Sambil mendengar ilmu, sambil mencatat nya

 *Ada rahmat disebalik kesesakan jalan raya.

Gaya hidup tidak sihat. Entri jurnal hari ni:

Arrived home late after work every night, for the past 2 weeks. Take home either local burger or drive-in fast food, then surrender to sleep. Same routine for tomorrow, and day after. Yesterday had Dunch at 4pm, after the meeting. (Dunch = dinner and lunch). The level of sugar was dropping - I was shaky, sweaty and hungry. Finished the meal but never feel full. Continued snacking between reading and replying emails. Feel unhealthy.

Hanya Engkau pemilik segala Ketabahan. Entri jurnal hari ni:


Hari ni pada awal pagi, saya berdoa kepada Tuhan - Ya Allah rezeki kan saya dengan ilmu agar saya dapat membuat setiap perkara dengan betul. Sesungguhnya ilmu itu milik Mu. Ya Allah, rezekikan saya ketabahan agar dapat saya melalui setiap perkara yang datang dengan hati yang terbuka dan tenang. Hanya Engkau pemilik segala Ketabahan. Sesungguhnya Engkau maha mendengar, pengasih dan penyayang. Kerana, catatan saya pada hari ini adalah seperti berikut

Day at work. An alien subject to study - the procument. Some serious and expensive goods are arriving in less than a month and I have zero idea how to what and where. No one to refer to, except Mr Google. The clock struck 7pm and I was tired, feel hopeless and unable to focus. Hungry, you bet, and thinking of the big burger (dan kegembiraan). Calling off the day, period. Before I left, told a friend - Congratulations! I just graduated in Procurement, online.

Hari ini rutin pagi, berjalan - 2 pusingan (1.4km x 2) dalam masa 1 jam. Cuba berlari, tak sampai 50m dah berhenti. Pancit dan tiada energy.

Beautiful Saturday: Continued working at home till 2am last night, and today I intended to sleep longer. But at 7.30am, I was fully attire and arrived at the park - last night's assignments were getting all over my head and so I need to walk. Either I was unusually early or the weekend crowds were unusually heavy. I spotted few new working out friends, waving at me to join them. But they were still waiting for few more to come. I will join shortly I said, and continued to walk. Still waiting for more to come, so I continued walking my second round. Finally everybody was there and the working out session commenced. It rained sweat, almost flooding and the morning sun was slowly baking. While warming down, I saw the blue sky above me, so clear and limitless that I wish I can fly. The park was almost empty when we left. Some of us mingled for a while for a short chat. I checked my mobile, and  noticed few miss calls - a reminder to attend today's class. I did not do any preparation for today, and decided to skip another saturday class - my 2nd time in a row this month. I stayed lazy all day, between sleep and awake on the couch. Missed my favourite Korean drama and the Perfect Match! I didnt have energy to stay awake for tv. I actually forgot to watch them.  

Dunia ini tak sebesar mana. Entri jurnal hari ni:

Meeting with one of the client at their office. Funny, later to find out that the location is just one floor before one of my close friend’s office, which I used to regularly visit for chat and lunch. The world is small, really.

Cleaning is like putting one's life back and orderly. It gives a feel good.


Hari ini saya bangun awal dan sekadar membuat kerja rumah bagi menggantikan aktiviti berjalan kaki. Berikut adalah catatan diari saya:

Cancelled my attendance to a seminar today and conveyed my apology to a dear friend, whom I promised to go together with. I didnt feel like going anywhere today, but to stay home. Did some house cleaning, from the hallway to bedrooms, then the kitchen. Soon, some good 1/2 hours were gone, the best accomplishment for the day.

Working bee menjadi walking bee hari ni.
Hujung minggu yang aman dan penuh semangat. Bangun awal pagi untuk rutin berjalan. Kembali pada sebelah petang untuk rutin berjalan. Sungguh tidak percaya! Berikut catatan saya:

7.30am: another morning routine walk. Joined the few last minutes working out with another group of girls, then proceed with 2 rounds of walk (1.4km x 2).

6.00pm: 1st time going for late afternoon walk. Unusual crowd - some were runnning, some walking, having a picnic and dating. Multi-purpose park is for everyone. I keep walking. This time I made 4 rounds. The sun was setting beautifully, just before I left.

Tidur lewat menonton rancangan Perfect Match di NTV7. Bagi yang kenal peserta wanita yang bernama Ting Ting, this quote has won the heart!

364 hari adalah musim sejuk. 1 hari adalah musim bunga. Dan hari itu adalah hari ini.

Kadang-kadang kesungguhan akan diuji dengan pelbagai cara. Jadual bersenam bertukar menjafi acara makan. Berikut catatan saya pada hari itu:

Ready for another round of morning walk. I wanted to jog this time, no matter what. If can affort only 10 steps, then 10 steps is. But it rained just before arrived at the park. Took another route and stopped by a double-storey, supposed to be someone-I-know's house. A house dog was barking angrily, telling that I-dont-know-you. So I decided to have my breakfast instead, at a nerby mamak. Perhaps this time I arrived in  different attire than usual, one of the mamak has greeted me pleasantly. Shortly I notice I still am wearing my running shoe. (normally I would change and wear my toilet-sandal)

Hari bekerja yang memenatkan, setiap hari 6 hari seminggu. Jika bernasib baik, masih perlu bekerja lagi di rumah pada hari Ahad. Setiap hari merungut, tetapi setiap hari juga setia melakukan nya. Pernah mendengar seorang teman merungut, lalu saya berkata - hidup ini memang begitu bila kita memilih untuk tidak mempunyai pilihan. Memilih untuk tidak ada pilihan - terngiang-ngiang di fikiran saya setiap hari selepas itu. Berikut catatan saya pada hari itu:

Arrived home late, the 4th day on the row. Meeting, discussions, receiving stock, recording stocks, attending matters not belongs to me, attending matters that was due last week - taking my whole working hours until 6pm. Then only can sit comfortably without distractions, and start doing the paper-job. Have some 30 pages reports due by end of this month and there are nine of them. The best part is, I havent start any of them, and end of month is less than 3 weeks away. 3 hours passed quickly, and some of us were still in the office when I left. I am tired, hungry, and all I care now is to just home, eat and sleep. Stopped by for a take-home special beef burger. Beef fried and wrapped in egg. With empty stomach, you bet it looks 10 times delicious. It was past 11pm, when I was happier and heavily sleepy. Wish can wait a little while for proper digestion but sleepiness is at max. Off to sleep to wake up as working bees the next morning. Btw, it is is my 3rd night in a row, eating burger for dinner. Welcome fats!

Metabolism was good, 2 years younger - patutlah selalu lapar.


Bangun awal pagi dan bersemangat untuk bersenam. Kali ini membawa bersama sebotol air kosong dan sepasang persalinan. Perlu pergi ke perpustakaan selepas bersenam untuk memulangkan buku pinjaman.  Catatan saya pada hari ini :

The weather was nice, potholes have dried. After walking 2 rounds (1.4km x 2), joined a group of ladies working out. It was fun and sweat-pouring. Before went home, I stayed for a little while chatting with one of the girls. She invited me to get some measurement. Metabolism was good, 2 years younger my age. Bone density wasnt too good, way below average. I drank warm milk early in the morning and at night though, with honey. I wonder where has all the calcium gone?

Aktiviti berucap, teks ucapan ini telah diedit dari teks ucapan asal YB PM sempena sambutan tahun baru. Kelas seterusnya mungkin tidak dapat di hadiri untuk beberapa lama. Dan untuk beberapa lama jugalah saya akan lambat mahir berucap :)

Selepas lebih 365 hari tersimpan di dalam kotak, akhirnya kasut senaman yang tersimpan cantik di dalam kotak digunakan. Tiba di tasik seawal jam 7.30 pagi tetapi kelihatan keadaan laluan untuk berlari dan berjalan sedang dalam pembinaan. Berikut adalah catatan diari saya:

The walking track was heavily under constructions. It rained heavily last night, potholes were seen everywhere, and filled with water. I decided to only walk and not run. Have attempted to run on my second round but the level of energy wasnt just there. Managed to walk 2 rounds (1.4km x 2 rounds) before going off to a nearby mamak and had roti canai dan teh tarik.

Teman sarapan teh tarik sudah semestinya sang roti canai.


Roti canai kegemaran saya adalah yang tekstur berwarna keperang-perangan nya adalah lebih banyak dari daerah yang warna putih lesi. Roti canai kebencian saya pula adalah roti canai sejuk yang telah di panaskan semula. Roti canai paling teruk pula adalah roti canai frozen! ( mungkin standby pada hari pembuat roti canai on medical leave -mc )

Menjadi penggemar roti canai tegar, saya juga arif membuat semak laku keatas setiap roti canai yang di hidangkan. Jika penipuan ini berlaku, saya akan memanggil kembali si penghantar roti dan menyuruhnya buat yang fresh, bukan yang di reheat.

I arrived early for morning duties lately, and have the time to teh tarik and roti canai. I even can leisurely write down few notes, anything that at that time, croseses into mind. This is someting I found interesting, and wonder how I have come to write. There is a story behind (and related to somebody else) but is not of great importance to tell.

...Perhaps this is the so called the power of takdir. Just be yourself and someday you will meet someone who can accept you as you are.

Yes, for the past few years, the Creator has thought me a lesson called  " submission" (berserah). Just be a good "sumbitter" to His will and never take His role of planning a human life. After playing the role at your best, just feel Redha, no matter how difficult the path can be, or feel syukur should the path turns easier and a lot shorter.

Often we asked, why this (or that) is happening to us? Just remember, every event in one's life can sometimes meant for somebody else, and not us. There is some life lesson for someone to learn, and we are just the lucky ones to be selected, to play and be part of this role of acts. Just dont feel bad or anything.

Many times we would notice that something similar may have had happened to us in the past, and that some of other lucky ones has helped us to play some roles and help us to gain some good lesson for our life.  

So, no worry, the Creator will adequately prepare every one of us to face just anything that may came into our life. Nothing happen without reasons. Its just a matter of which to happen first, and which is next. So just sit back and relax, take sometime to look into us, and see how Creator's planning is just perfect!